Wow it has been a LONG time since I have updated so I thought it would be a good idea to make a post.
First of all we have been super super super busy!! We bought a duplex and have been painting, carpeting, cleaning, sanding etc. Right now we currently dont have the internet at our house or even TV !! so really every spare minute is spent cleaning and trying to get it ready for our baby. Currently the whole upstairs is sanitized and ready to go. I cannot tell you how nice it is to be able to walk around without shoes on !! I LOVE IT !!! but as soon as i even think about going downstairs the shoes are back on. the people that lived there before us had some pets and pet hair was everywhere. So pet owners for your landlords sake please be clean with your pets!

We did find some time to go see the lights with some friends and it was nice to get a little break in the routine. it was great! Christmas is one of my favorite holidays. I love the smells- pine, cider, fresh wrapping paper, hot cocoa, fire. and all the beautiful christmas lights that are put up, christmas trees, stockings-- the whole bit. I am ashamed to say that because of the state of our house we were only able to get a teeny tiny tree-- no lights- no stockings nothing !! so our house is a christmas let down BUT NEXT YEAR watch out neighborhood !!

Grace is doing great!!! and she has developed quite the personality Brock calls me crazy but i think i am right.. when i went to get my Non stress test one week she was sleeping so they needed to wake her up to make her heart rate accelerate. so they bring this buzzer thing in that kinda vibrates and makes noise and they stick it around her head. well most kids jump and their heart rate immediatly goes up. well our dear grace just kicks at the thing and rolls over. ok maybe it was a coincidence the first time But she did it 3 MORE TIMES. the only explination i can think of is that she get so used to my bowels bugging her that, that little buzzer thing wasnt going to wake her up. So from now on I always eat a little bit of candy before i go just to keep her awake. I am so excited for her to get here! I talked my Dr. into inducing me on Jan 11, 2011.. he wouldnt do it any sooner or it would have been then. but i thought that 1-11-11 would be a pretty cool birthday.

thats a quick update! I hope everybody enjoys their holidays and is safe. Enjoy spending time with your loved ones and family!! every moment is important !! let your loved ones know that you love them. I know that more now then ever.

I got my bill !!

I know nobody gets excited for bills, and neither do I. But im not going to lie i have been very curious about my recent trip to the hospital and just exactly what something like that costs!! so in case any of you out there were wondering what an 11 day stay in the hospital, including blood tests, Oerating Room Minutes for 3 surgeries, PICC line and Arterial line placements, Pharmacy (medications), Radiology---just the tests not the Drs reading it, Room service, and any random supplies they use, Labory and delivery monitoring, Respiratory and a few adjustments here and there it comes to about
103868.20 Just a rought estimate. HAHAHAHAHA
When i first saw that number i thought it was around ten thousand and i thought to myself hey not bad. but as i was reading the number out loud it came out right and i started laughing my head off!!! sure glad for insurance!!! i cant wait to see what all the Dr's are going to charge !

Lots to say

I have almost been out of the hospital for a week now, and let me tell you it is great to be out of that place! I first of all want to start off by telling everybody that prayed, fasted, sent flowers, visited, and everything else-- thank you so so so much. you will never know how much your love and support has ment to me and Brock during this difficult time. I know that I was healed, and our baby was saved by a pure miracle and i am greatful every day for that. I am truely humbled by the kindness that has been shown to my family during this time and all I can really say is thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Also to catch you up from where Brock left off. I woke up from my last surgery and quite honestly I dont really remember what day it was. I remember people coming and visiting, my mom and brock showing me cards that people had left, and getting updates about how eden was doing in district volleyball tournaments. I started really "coming to" on Saturday- Oct 23. when i was moved out of the shock and trauma ICU. That day i got another NG tube put down my nose to feed me. I will tell you that i am so glad that i was out of it when they put the first big one down because the 2nd smaller one was TERRIBLE!!! mostly because they had to go past my stomach a little bit. the next couple of days i spent recovering and trying to regain my strength. I was finally allowed to eat food on wednesday oct 27. I was so excited but soon found out that it wasnt going to be that great of an experience. I have no appetite after not eating anything for about a week, and when i did eat i got filled up so quickly it was hardly worth my effort. the first day i was only able to get 600 calories down- and i was trying my hardest!!! on thursday they told me i needed to get down a lot more food so i tried again and did a little better but still not great. and then on friday they said that if i wanted to go home i had to get down 2500 calories!! I COULDNT believe it!! never in my life have i ever eaten 2500 calories in one day-- at least not that i can remember. I figure my normal diet probably consists of anywhere between 1500-1800 calories and thats on a good day when i get time to eat 3 meals.----- i somehow got enough calories down that day (thank you carnation breakfast drinks that have 560 calories !!!) and i got discharged saturday morning.

SInce being discharged my life has been very different from what i am used to. I consider myself to be highly independent and able to do basically everything for myself. well.. not so much anymore. I struggle daily trying to eat... i have no appetite and everything tastes different then it used to. SO my mom and Brock have been pushing food down me like crazy. I think i have been making small improvements and hopefully will be able to get back to a somewhat "normal" eating habit. This may be TMI but hey everybody poops so here ya go. My bowels are somewhat eager to work, so much so that they are working like crazy and things just shoot right through me. I have had a few close calls and i promise to never laugh at those boys that pooped their pants on their mission... enough about that.... Grace as far as we know is doing great i go to the doctor weekly and also get non-stress tests weekly. they measure her heart rate, contractions, and check her fluid to make sure everything is progressing normally. SO far so good. I am so nervous to find out if there are going to be any effects from my surgery, and all the medications that i was given that could hurt her permanatly. Right now that is my biggest fear.

I would also like to say that if you or anybody you know is having medical problems, whatever it may be... If a doctor or Nurse or whoever is ignoring your concerns or telling you that it is no big deal or anything along that line, and it is a big deal to you... DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT... It is not ok.. DO NOT be ignored !! Looking back at the 2 months that I endured this pain, and had the fear of not knowing when i was going to have an "episode" and not getting the help or attention from medical professionals that i needed my biggest regret is that i did let them push me aside and ignore me.. its not ok.

I am so so so greatful for my special nurse in the labor and delivery unit at IMC. she paid attention to me and took me serious--- she did her job as a nurse!! she realized that my pain wasnt a typical pregnancy pain or "just gas" as i had previously been told. If she would have ignored me I wouldnt be here today.... I am also forever indebted to Dr. Stevens (my surgeon) who first of all had the courage to operate on me not only 1 time but 3 different times. and also giving me a chance to heal instead of just cutting all my guts out of me. Being 22 I never really thought about dieing, it just really wasnt one of my concerns. I am so greatful that i was given a 2nd chance at life. I have said it before but i am saying it again. I have the best husband!! He is one of the greatest men i know and i am so blessed to have him. I wouldnt be here without him.. he could have just said lets wait a couple of hours before we go to the hospital... but he didnt he took me immediatly and saved me!!

I believe in miracles.. I know i was saved, and showed incredible mercy from God. I am greatful everyday for this

Update on Haili

Well this is my first and only blog post so bare with me. This is Brock; Haili wanted me to make a post so that everyone knows what is going on with her and how she is doing. At the end of the post I will post a few pictures so if you don't want to see them, don't scroll down.

A few months ago haili started getting intense pains in her bowels. We took her to ER on two different occasions and one time they told us that she had pregnancy pains and the FLU. The Second time they gave her high amounts of Morphine and Dilaudid and it didn't even work. That is some intense pain! They did an MRI and came to the conclusion that she has Intusseption (When part of your bowel swallows/overlaps the other part.). They then sent us home and told us that there was nothing we could do since she is pregnant. All they instructed us to do were to wait and if the pain lasts longer than 6 hours to go into the ER. Over the next few weeks Haili endured these pains for hours at a time.

On Monday night I dropped Haili off at work at 7pm. At 2am Tuesday morning she called me and asked me to come get her and that an episode was starting again. I took her home and within minutes she said she had to go to the hospital. I grabbed her and took her to Labor and Delivery instead of the ER. We got her there and they gave her some Dilaudid, and it didn't touch her pain again. The Nurse there realized that this is something that needs to be dealt with and not dismissed. They gave her an epidural and then ordered a CT scan. After the results came back our room was bombarded with Nurses, Doctors, Surgeons, Residents, etc... They said her bowels are twisted and had no blood in them. They said they had to get her to the OR immediately or that she would die.

The first Surgery was Tuesday morning and after the Doctor (Stevens) came out and said that what she has is very serious. It is called MAL-ROTATION of the BOWEL. When we are still in the womb our insides go out from our body, rotate and then go back in. When she was in the womb it did not rotate/or rotate correctly. Usually it causes pain to the infant from 1 month to 1 year. Haili lived a pain free life until she got pregnant and her uterus started expanding. The Surgeon said that when they opened her up that her Bowels were Black and dark Purple instead of Pink. They were going to remove her Bowels and put her on an IV Feed for the rest of her life. Given that she is 22 yrs old and pregnant, they decided to take a chance to give her a normal life. They took out bowels out and untwisted them 720 degrees. When her bowels twisted it cut off all the blood flow and thus caused the pain. As they untwisted them they noticed that a few parts started getting some good color back. They made a decision to leave her open for 8 hours to give her bowels a chance to heal.

The following 8 hours were tough. She was intibated and paralyzed since they could not have her move, cough, etc... Her stomach was wide open with plastic covering the bowels. There were worries about the Baby and whether or not she would need to be delivered or even survive all that Hail’s body was going through. At 8pm surgery started again and a few hours later the surgeon came out and told us what had happened. He said that 60% of her bowels he regained the PINK color. He said that he was cautiously optimistic that Haili might be alright. They decided to leave her open once more but this time until Thursday morning. They wanted to give her bowels more time to heal. The options of the third surgery were:

1) See that they are healed and sew her back up.
2) Cut out the dead parts of the bowel and stitch the good parts together.

This was a big risk in itself since she was contracting a little bit, she has the chance of infection and other effects. On Wednesday afternoon they took the paralytic medicine off and she woke up very slowly, but only to have her arms tied down and sedatives in place so that she would not move or freak out. All she could do was nod her head yes or no to questions and eventually write questions she had on pieces of paper. She was miserable and in very bad shape. She handled the tubes, in mouth, throat, nose very well and remained calm.

Thursday morning they operated one last time. It went great! The Surgeons were amazed that her bowels had just about healed (with the exceptions of a few dark spots). They sewed her back up and since then she has been in the Shock Trauma ICU. In the last few days she has had some Ups and some Downs. She has had some post surgery complications but has fought through them. She has been very strong. She is still very weak and tired. It is hard to talk to her since she does not have much energy, however between writing on paper and whispering words she has managed to keep her sense of humor. Things are looking good and it will be a long road to recovery. We are so fortunate that so many Doctors and Nurses gave extra care to her. Everyone in the whole hospital knew about her and would have done anything for her. We are thankful that this time a Surgeon had the courage to open up a 22 year old pregnant woman without really knowing what he was going to see. If he would have waited she would have died. With the exception of a few crappy doctors that led up to this event, we received above and beyond care from the best Doctors in the state.

We have witnessed a MIRACLE. She either should have died, lost the baby, or lost her bowels. She went from WORST CASE scenario to BEST CASE! We are so grateful for all the prayers, Phone Calls, Texts, Flowers, Fast’s, etc... We will never know who all prayed for us, or who all fasted us (There were many) but to those of you who did and are still doing so, THANK YOU!!! We know that through all these things Haili was saved and so was our baby (Grace). We still need your payers since this is not over yet.

Thank you everyone!






After Surgery #1


After Surgery #2



After Surgery #3

Busy Busy

Sewing:
I have been sewing like a crazy lady trying to get everything ready. my goal is to have everything finished by the middle of november!!! I know I know its a crazy goal but.... I just have to !! BECAUSE ......


We are under contract on a duplex that i am IN LOVE with !! a quick description is it has white brick on the outside, great landscaping, 4 bedrooms 2 baths 2 fireplaces a garage!!! I am so so excited.. Brock keeps telling me not to get my emotions involved and i have to look at it as an investment but come on i have to live there right??? anyway the one side that we are renting out, the people have been living there for like 5 years and dont plan on really moving ever ! which is so exciting... we did have to have he other side move out. On the side we are moving into needs just a few things updated. mostly carpet/flooring, windows, and of course paint. So thats why my goal is the middle of november to be done with baby stuff because... we are planning on closing end of october/beginning of november cant move in until 30 days after --unless the people living in there right now move out sooner. So lets keep our fingers crossed that everything goes as planned !!!
xoxox
HAILI

Feeling Good !!

Just a quick update!! I have only had one little episode in the last week !!! Thanks so much for all of your comments/calls and especially your prayers !!!

For some new news .......... Brock and I have been looking at buying a house/duplex/etc. and I think we found one!!! we are in the middle of negotiations so as soon as its all straightened out i will post pics and all of the fun stuff !!! but just know that i am so so so so so... excited !!!

one of those sappy blog posts

I am not the most mushy person in the world. And basically I like to keep my private matters just like that private. i think thats what make me such a bad blogger!! But... I am going to go out of my comfort zone a bit and publisize (i dont know if thats a word) my private !! From the previous post you understand kinda the sitution I am in. Through all of this I have briefly told you that brock was great, but i wanted to tell you how great !!!!
You know what a little bunny rabbit looks like when you put a spot light on it, or a deer in headlights look??? The first time I had my pain--in idaho--although i didnt get to see him when my mom told him she was taking me to the hospital and he needed to hurry and get there, I imagine brock having that look on his face. When he first got to the hospital he immediately came and sat on my bed gave me a quick kiss, rubbed my arm and asked if he could do anything for me. The whole time i was in that hospital bed I saw a look of desperation on his face although my family was joking around me and we were giggling here and there Brock was paying attention to and anticipating my every need. The nurse said i needed to drink water so brock came and sat on my bed again and tried to get it down me. even though we went home thinking i was just dehydrated Brock carried me downstairs, put me in bed, brought me some water just in case i needed it, and warmed me up since i was still shivering.
now i know these sound like simple easy tasks that you think to yourself well if my loved one were in this situation i would probably do the same thing...and maybe you would. Brock did!!
I am not going to take you through each hospital visit But i will tell you that since i work nights and have to catch up on my sleep during the days I have kinda been the worst house wife ever. I have woke up some days to Brock having the house spotless--dishes done, carpets vaccuumed. the whole 9 yards!!
The last but not least, the last "episode" that i had lasted from about 6:30 to about 4 in the morning. It was bearable but brock sat by my side the ENTIRE time. for the first hour he drove me around because we thought it would take my mind off it. Then everytime my breathing changed because my pain would get more intense i would see brock stop what he was doing and put his full attention on me. He called the hospital and demanded to talk to the oncall OB at 3 in the morning. He refused to go to bed because he didnt want me to go through this alone....
I honestly dont know who reads my blog and unless you are some creep putting the heads of my pictures on inappropriate pictures i dont care that ya do in fact welcome i hope you enjoy your stay..... I just dont think that i am as kind and thoughtful and caring as Brock has been. I have been blessed to have been able to marry him! I have been blessed to have such an amazing man that is selfless, caring, and attentive to me and my every need. I am so greatful that brock is a worthy priesthood holder. I know that my pain has been lessened because of his faith. During times of struggle it is sometimes difficult to see the bigger picture, Brock has continually given me strength by helping me increase my faith and showing me a christlike example. i say that i love him and i do so so so much but it just doesnt feel like the right word... i wish there was more that i could say because what i think & feel for this sweet man seems like so much more !!!!